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I’m a hopeless romantic. Those of you who know me well, should know this.

I love falling in love, being in love, staying in love… all that. 

My favourite songs include See a better day by Graham Coxon and Toothpaste Kisses by The Maccabees. My favourite movie is The Notebook. I read chic lit half the time, because I like seeing the heroine of the book (usually a clumsy normal girl) find the love of her life.

See, everything points to my hopeless romantic nature. When was the last time you saw me truly happy, like glowing? I was probably in love, or having a major crush on someone (who I was hoping to fall in love with). 

I need this. More then you guys know. The last time it ended, a major reason was because we thought it wouldn’t last forever, that was me mostly. I told him that I didn’t think I would end up marrying him – because I thought he was an aimless boy who would never grow up to be the man that I wanted to marry (you know all that jazz about husband material and all). That totally crushed him and eventually we gave up on each other.

Sometimes you just got to let your heart do the feeling and then let your head do the thinking, not the other way round. We’ve decided to give it another chance. Not to commit till we think we can make it last, but not to rule it out completely either. We care a lot about each other, too much to go down the same old road and hurt each other.

Falling in love is easy, staying in love is the difficult part. That kind of love is more like caring a lot for the other person. I said that some time ago, when he said that to me today, I was kind of speechless. 

We both spoke to people about this, and different people said different things. I think what’s most important is that we are happy. So please support me on this, if this ends in us being unhappy along the way, at least we can say that we tried, because I think the last time we were young and too restless for our own good.

I’m not saying that this will last forever, I just need some sort of hope that there’s a chance of us being happy… like truly happy.

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Written by priya.balraju

July 30, 2008 at 1:45 am

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