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There are a few things I hate more then people who have no pride in the way that they look. I do not expect people to be strutting around in designer garb, but I do expect society (in general) to be well dressed. Looking good should be something that you take pride in as a self respecting human being. So yea, I do judge people based on the way they look. So do you, admit it.

I find that the common thing I hear (especially from my family) when I’m truthful and say something about how this person looks bad is ” oh, that person doesn’t have alot of money, so how can they look good?” BULLSHIT I say, looking good does not equal to spending tons of money. It’s just a few calculated moves when shopping, buying what looks good for your body type, getting things that match at least 5 different items in your current wardrobe, keeping to a budget, waiting for a sale, that sort of thing.

And I find a really good way to update your look is with some color! Which is why whenever I’m too poor to shop, I let myself buy some colorful nail polish/ eyeliner to brighten up my day (:

I recently purchased these three colors, so pretty, so Burberry/ Marc Jacobs Spring/ Summer 2010 and so cheap! The lilac n honeydewish shades are from The Faceshop and cost $2.90 each, the turquoise is from a flea market and cost $3.00! Such GBs!


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February 19, 2010 at 3:24 pm

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Best I ever had

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He looked straight at me
“You’re oddly fascinating”
He spoke to my heart

My life is in such a strange limbo right now, I have no idea what the fuck to do with myself and its so sickening. Don’t blame me for being incapable of “enjoying” my joblessness, its not enjoyable at all.

My only joys nowadays are in Skins & Secret Diary of a Call Girl which both have new seasons, meeting up with my friends and writing in my tarot blog (which is probably the only positive outcome of my boredom). On the other hand, I’ve thought up of new ways to occupy my time while I look for a job, I’ll keep you guys updated.

While reading through my RSS reader, I realized how much coverage the Acne show received, and well its not surprising, cause it was SO FABULOUS. Here are some of my favorite shots (:

The clothes are delish! Interesting without being too try hard. And the shoesssssss, omgthebluewedgesaremakingmesowet. Ok, back to wallowing in self pity.

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February 10, 2010 at 11:29 pm

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Sweet nothings

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I’m running through life now.

In between school, work, projects and friends, I have almost no time for myself. I’m thinking about pampering myself sometime soon, maybe a little massage + wax day. Get some me time.

August is almost over – which means that I’m getting closer to graduation. I’m a little nervous about job hunting, so many questions about the future and as usual, there are no real solid answers for these things.

I went for a focus group yesterday, and all that I gathered from it was that I really am very mature for my age. I do not have unneccessary ribbons, I do not giggle, I do not have a whiny voice and I have enough poise to carry a decent conversation with people from any age group. I also wanted to punch a girl who was super ugly and had a fucking annoying voice. She was also damn act cute. argh. How the hell do these people get employed? loved? through life? There are some things I’ll never understand.

Have a good weekend people (: Mine’s going to be busy, but then what’s new?

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August 21, 2009 at 3:19 pm

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Yesterday when I got home, ALL my batteries needed recharging. Even my own, because I’m down with a horrid horrid flu bug and its so sucky. Body aches, fever, cough, runny nose – the whole thing!! I slept for 14 1/2 hours last night and I don’t feel much better.

I’m on 4 tabs + cough mixture, so yea its pretty serious. FTS. I’m probably going to knock out again in an hour or two.

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July 21, 2009 at 12:07 pm

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Part time lover

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I’m old. I know that. The moment the clock hit midnight on 6/6/09, I declared (1) the lost of my youth, (2) that I am now really in my twenties (3) that its really ok being old (it has a lot of benefits). However to deny that I sometimes want to be 18 again would be foolish of me, as I do get that feeling once in awhile. But fuck that, we’re not getting any younger.

10 signs of old age a.k.a Omg I’m 22, save me

1. Interest in health


This is probably the NO.1 sign that you’re getting older.

Remember those discussions of whose place you should get drunk at before a party or where you can get cheap shit from?? Well they’re now limited to about once every three months when you bored of being old, most of them are now replaced by discussions on where you guys should meet to exercise, what detox you should be going on because you’ve been drinking too much or what kind of diet will get rid of that horrid office tummy roll.

2. Aches and pains


There was once a time when your body felt no pain, well at least you have no real recollections of pain at certain ages. But now getting your period causes back aches, going in and out of air con so much causes headaches and all that exercise is a little tough on your knees, so they hurt a little sometime as well. Not forgetting the kind of shoulder and back aches you get from sitting in front of the computer 9 hours a day.

Of course you’ll just tell yourself that no pain = no gain, and its just an excuse for a massage in some spa – which is also rather old mind you.

3. Discussions about money – mostly about how to be rich by the time you’re in your late twenties (turning 30 probably deserves a book)

We’re talking about stock markets, shares, economic downturns, starting up your own company, making big big buckaroos. So that we can have a family / travel and one day retire comfortably. Hello fellow ancients.

4. Self Improvement



“What do you do in your free time?”

‘Well, I like to read.’

“What do you read? ”

“Oh lots of stuff, I particularly like books like Freakonomics, Blue Ocean Strategy and that one about how Starbucks made it big. Good stuff.”

‘Mmmmmm… yes, yes all good books, but I personally prefer, blah blah blah.’


5. Hygiene

There’s nothing wrong with showering 3 times a day. I’m allowed to be pissed with people who insist on walking around my room without washing their feet first. Shower before you get on my bed! I don’t like you, you stink, and I’m really not afraid to tell you. Hello oily hair, time for a shower!!

There’s nothing wrong with being clean and smelling nice, its just a concept the young ones don’t get.

6. Courtship


No I don’t want to fuck her, I just want to hold her hand and watch her sleep. All the boys around me are old too.

7. Home improvement

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I have a tab dedicated to Home decor and stuff in my Reader. Srsly.

Let me tell you what happens during my weekends nowadays. No matter how late I sleep, I’m usually up by 9.30am because my body REFUSES to sleep any later then that. After waking up so early, there is nothing much to do, so I clean. I dust, vacuum, mop and if I’m feeling very enthusiastic, I clean my windows too. Then I find things around the house that need to be done, mostly this involves making my space a little prettier. How old do I sound right now?

8. Hobbies

There is no joy in not having anything to do after a long week of work, so you need to occupy your weekends fruitfully. Meet a group of like minded individuals, go for a belly dancing class or go for a walk with your family. All things which I do, btw.

9. Boredom


So bored that we decided to imitate the poster in Zouk’s smoking corner.

Clubbing? Yawn. Getting drunk? Yawn. These things are most fun when you are new to them, then they just slowly turn into fungus like a loaf of bread in a moist place. Let’s just meet a nice chill-out kind of bar and have some fajitas and margaritas, so we don’t need to strain our voices over the loud music or act like we’re having fun.

10. Kids


Not your own of course, you’re not that old yet. But everywhere you turn, all you see are kids!! Everyone below the age of 21 is a child to you and aren’t they annoying as hell?? Annoying and kind of ugly because they haven’t learnt how to use their looks to their advantage yet, or maybe they just have none, whichever. I’m too old to look at them closely and analyze such nonsense. I have better things to do, like clean.

Well, all said and done, I really do like the fact that I’m much more mature now. It makes a whole lot of things better (:

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July 4, 2009 at 1:05 pm

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I’ll finally

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qygot5dgolg8d7xfy2qcpsxho1_500jpgI think I’m having a quarter life crisis, people. I feel like I’m stuck in A FUCKING RUT. Like I don’t live enough. As though every day, every single predictable day is stealing my life away from me and I’m not doing anything about it. I know I can’t do anything (much) till I’m done studying, but then what? I really do not have a clue about what I want to do with my life.

Studying is such an escape.

You know why people always say their school days were the best? Because it probably was the most unpredictable. At least you have time to sleep in on weekdays, be a little crazy, tell everyone it’s because you’re still in school. But then you grow up, start work, become boring. And that’s just the way it is for the rest of your life. That’s why people envy the young so much.

I mean think about it, if the friends are worth it, you’ll keep them. School hardly ever teaches you anything in class anyway, you just kind of drift through the hours, trying to absorb things, waiting to go home and hit the sack. That’s all there is to it, no?

There’s no living after that though. Every year, you work like a fucking dog to save money, to go on a holiday. Only to return to the little space in your life you were in before. Back to square one. Your holiday didn’t change your life, you probably dreaded going back to work, but that’s just the way it is. It’s almost as though that holiday emphasized the fact that your life sucks.

I feel like I need a direction, and I know I’ve got to do that for myself. Because recently, it’s become clearer that I am alone on this journey.

No one else really knows what you’re going through, not your closest friend, not your mom, not your lover. Even if you think that you’ve told them everything, there’s no way that they’ll truly know. No one will ever get you completely. There are some things that people will help you on your way with and other things that you have to just figure out on your own. I guess this is one of those things.

Say hi – November was white, December was grey

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April 2, 2009 at 1:05 am

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First love

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Sometimes I wish I wasn’t such a woman. You know what I’m like, I’m a pushover, I’m simple, I’m not as complicated, mysterious and edgy as I’d like to be. But I really can’t change that, its not that I’ve never tried, I just can’t. I think it comes from this insane need to be a people pleaser, its just in me. I know its ridiculous to expect everyone to be happy because of me, but it’s just a flaw of mine. I can’t sleep peacefully knowing that I’ve caused someone to be unhappy/pissed, even though it was perfectly justifiable for me to do so. Pathetic, I know, but it’s true. I’m also the kind of person who would rather shut up then cause a fight. Then suddenly, one day all this pent up anger appears and I have no idea how it got there in the first place. I need therapy. Pass the alcohol please. 

Lookin sharp and lookin for love.
They come runnin just as fast as they can
Coz every girl’s crazy bout a sharp dressed man. 

– ZZ top, Sharp Dressed Man

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August 9, 2008 at 3:42 am

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